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mummy says that even if i close my eyes people can still see me and thats why im not good at hide and seek. but thats not true. when i close my eyes everything goes super black for a second but then i can see all my friends like harry and allie and her sister standing in the dark.

its weird though because then they get wayy older, like they get big really fast and stuff and they start speaking like mummy does. about work and money and words i dont understand yet. allie gets big bags under her eyes and gray hair. harry gets really fat.

i always try to speak to them and say HEY ITS ME! but they never look. they just get older and they seem sad and when theyre really old they disappear one by one. then theres only this rushing noise left, like that really big waterfall i saw with mummy that was so loud at the bottom and it gets even more louder until its all i can hear in my head.

that part always scares me so i dont like closing my eyes, but sometimes when i open them harry yells at me and says im not playing properly. so now i just make sure my hiding spots arent very good so they can find me quickly. because all i want to do is open my eyes and see them again